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Tomorrow’s the day of the trip and i haven’t started packing… Haha… So much for packing a week in advance… My mum’s getting pretty against me wearing my bikini… I wonder why… Sigh…

Went for a photoshoot for Seventeen magazine yesterday. It took hours!! Did it to help Melody… Hehe… One of the girls backed out last minute so she called me… It was pretty fun… Cool experience… Met a friend of my brother’s there… This is a really small world…

Don’t have much to say… Not in the mood to blog… My mum just killed my mood… Sigh… Oh well, better start packing anyway… I’m praying that nothing bad happens for this trip. So far, going to KLIA’s already a problem… Ugh…

After having to stay cooped u at home for the past 5 months, i just realized that i don’t have a life anymore. Don’t know why i just don’t feel like going out at all… I’ve turned into this boring loner… I’m getting pretty scared. I’m so freaking lazy too… Sigh… What’s wrong with me??

Went to Ed’s place last night with Kah Ming. Met Jian Wei there. I went cos i needed to get out of the house. Went at 10p.m. Kah Ming, being such a dear, came to pick me up and sent me home after. We watched Queer Eye together. It was fun just to sit around and talk. Just hang out. I love doing that.

Sigh… Results will be out on the 14th of July. I’m already freaking out. I’m expecting quite bad results. Hopefully a miracle happens… Seriously.

Don’t know why i’ve been feeling so down and depressed. I’ve always been emotional and i’m trying not to be but it’s pretty tough. Sigh… I have no idea what i want… Maybe i really need some time away from home. Maybe i expect too much. Maybe it’s just me.

Quite a few grim incidents just happened recently.

Poor Colin. I was really shocked to hear bout his mum and i’m really sorry to hear bout what happened. It isn’t easy to lose someone you love especially when it happens when you’re away from home. I really hope Colin’s doing fine now.

Darling Li Ying, i really hope your head’s much better. Do take care k?? Please remember to use the safety belt next time k?? It’s really dangerous to drive without it on. I’m glad that’s all the injuries u got and that you’re ok. Please remember that we’re here for you. I know i’m not always around and i don’t always see you but i do care for you.

I’m left with not much mood to do anything. I think i just got bored of Diablo… Haha… Unbelievable… yeah… Haha…

Had lunch with Ed and Kah Ming yesterday. It was so nice to see them again. Can’t wait for Langkawi now… Hehe…

Am feeling kinda tired now. Woke up at 6.15 am today. Woke MX up at 6.20 am and picked her up at 6.45 am to go to Gasing Hills to walk with my parents. It was tiring but i felt good after that. It’s been a while since i last went there. I’m so out of stamina… Must start training again. After the walk, we went to have breakfast… Had tosai… Love it… Then, i went over to MX’s place to help her wash her cars… Borrowed lots of DVDs and VCDs too!! Haha… Keep me occupied throughout this hols… We had fun just talking and chatting with Ed… Haha… We’re planning to go again to Gasing Hills. This time with Edward, Kah Ming, KJ, and the lazy bum… Haha…

Just took a nap. Was feeling so sleepy… Can’t wait for next week!! Muahahaha… Wondering what i should do now… Haha… Maybe i’ll go play some more Diablo…

It’s now the second day of holidays… Haven’t been doing much. Got hooked on Diablo… Haha… Played Warcraft with my two brothers yesterday. It was fun but quite stressful sometimes… Slept bout 12 something last night and got up bout 8 something to go swimming with Mei Xian at BSC (Bangsar Sports Complex). The standard of cleaniness in the pool has improved so much!! It felt really good to swim again but my muscles are so tensed up, it actually hurts after a while… Sigh… I must train up again… There’s the Inter-programme Swimming Competiton in the Sunway Condo in August and i’m in charge of it with Jin Wei… Haha… Met my old tennis coach when i went to BSC this morning. Time has flown by. The last time i saw him, i was still such a small kid and Mei Xian used to call him Ah Kung (grandfather)… Now, he really is a grandfather!! Haha…

Waking up really early tomorrow to go to Gasing Hills to walk… I love that place. Really good workout… Going with Mei Xian and my parents… Going bout 7 in the morning then we’ll have breakfast after that… haha… Lovely!!

Been clearing out my drawers… Came across lots of old cards, bringing back lots of memories… Sigh… Miss my old swimming friends and my synchro mates too…

It’s bout a week and a day till our Langkawi trip… Haven’t started packing yet… Haha… Can’t wait to spend some quality time with my best friend, my girls, and my dearest… Not forgetting my pet-brother and my good friend!! Hehe… It’s going to be fun…

Have to meet up with my old swimming friends, my old synchro friends, and my old school friends!! Hehe… Lots to do…

It’s finally OVER!! Muahahahahahahahaha… I can finally sleep at night. I can have fun without feeling guilty. I can catch up with old friends!! *Sighs blissfully* I can play as much piano as i want… Lalala… I so need to swim tonight…

Hmm… Physics paper was bad… Really really tough. Wasn’t anything like the other past year papers… After the paper, went to Pyramid to watch Batman with my darling. Bumped into Sue-Ann with Kat. Finally got to meet her after hearing so much bout her. Saw Sher too… It’s so weird to find out that everyone’s connected somehow… Like how Sher’s bf’s my friend’s brother… Haha… Batman was good… Started of pretty slow but it picked up. However, i didn’t like the Batmobile. I mean it’s a cool thing but it didn’t look like the original one…

Well well, have to get all my swimming friends together!! Haven’t seen them in ages!! Hmm… Just my holiday to look forward to… Hehe… Till next time… which will be soon… Haha…

Well, it’s just one more day and one more paper to go… Just Physics now… It’s down to the last battle… Haha… Well, i’m glad i’m actually in the mood to do something now… Came down with a horrible tummy ache yesterday. Could hardly sleep properly… It’s much better now, thank God…

Dinner with my aunt and uncle was great last night!! After dinner, we went to the pasar malam for a while then we went back home. My dad brought the two younger kids back home first and they went to the playground!! My dad was a babysitter for a while!! Haha… We got putu mayam for supper (which became my breakfast this morning) and i got keropok lekor!! Hehe… When the adults were busy talking, my little cousins were playing Warcraft!! Haha… So i couldn’t use my computer…

Well, sick of studying but i know i have to do well for this paper… Maybe i should go study… Haha…

Oh yeah, my darling Sarah jie jie has come back from Australia for a while!! Yay!! Hehe… Well, i should be going…

It’s bout time… I just have one more paper to go!! It’s 3.10 in the morning… I seriously don’t know what i’m doing online. I should be studying but i’m on my blog. Haha… Just a few happy things happened to me…

Just got an e-mail from Gracie after sooooo long!! I so miss writing to her… I’m so glad she’s doing great in her new environment… *Muacks* darling!!

I got back one of my beloved pet-brothers… We had some misunderstandings and problems but we’re over it and i’m glad you’re still my brother… You know who you are…

My darling is such a darling!! Haha… Can’t wait to go for our Langkawi trip!! Beach!! Swimming!! Great friends!! *Sighs blissfully*

Malaysian Idol is so funny… Watched the KL auditions just now… Hehe…

I’ve got dinner with my second mum tomorrow!! Yay!! She’s actually my aunty… My mum’s sister… haha… She’s crazy and funny but most importantly full of FUN!! Love her to bits!! Hehe…

I should get some sleep… Hard core Physics tomorrow… BATMAN BEGINS after my Physics paper on Monday!! Yay!! Muahahaha…

Count down to freedom: 2 days 8 hours 15 minutes

Count down to trip: 12 days

Math was NOT good. It’s never ever a good paper except during primary, secondary, and college. Once uni, it’s NEVER easy anymore. It’s so complicated!! Argh!! I might have to do my Math again next semester. Hopefully they take internal marks in account. If it’s a fail if i fail finals paper, then the possibility of me taking Math again is pretty high, and that’s not a nice thought. Sigh…

Well, at least that’s another paper down, so now i’m left with 2 more papers to go… Really have to do well for the next two… Sigh… I don’t really want to talk bout it now. Still feel like killing myself for spending so much time memorising things that didn’t come out and forgetting easy stuff like VECTORS!! However, what’s done is done. The only thing i can do now is concentrate on the other papers i have…

Had lunch in Secret Recipe in Pyramid after Math paper just now. Went with Brian and Clement. Was supposed to get something for my dad but i so don’t know what to get him. Wanted to get him a mug but all the mugs weren’t nice at all… So boring. Darling MX drove me to uni and back today cos we had papers at the same time. So don’t feel like studying anymore. I’m so sick of it!! But of cos i still have to push myself. I really envy my friends who can just understand everything we have to study. They don’t have to ponder on something for so long and still not get anything out of it. Sigh…

Sometimes i wonder why i look at things differently nowadays. Why have i become so paranoid?? Why do i get so jealous because of every single little thing?? I wasn’t this bad last time. It’s getting worse now… Sigh… Why can’t i let go like last time?? Why is everything so dark and gloomy?? Why does every little thing get on my nerves?? People say it’s just the stress from the exams and i really hope so. I can’t live like this. I keep getting the urge to just jump of the building or just kill myself. It’s scaring me myself too… It’s getting worse day by day.

Sigh… I really can’t wait for the trip. Maybe all i need is some time away to clear my mind. I really hope nothing worse happens… How much worse can it get?? Ugh… What the hell is going on??

Countdown to freedom: 4 days 19 hours

Countdown to trip: 15 days

I’m so excited now!! Actually, more like tired now… Just came back from uni… Went to the library at 11am today to do some math with Sue. We both helped each other out. Feeling better now… Poor Sue has gotten a sorethroat!! GET WELL SOON, DEAR!! Yes, Math paper tomorrow… Then it’s MATERIALS on FRIDAY!! Ok ok… Chill… *breathes in and out*. Saw Yi Yang, Sian Thoe, and Yoong Ming at the library too… Hmm… Was that Gurdeep i saw too?? Not too sure… Kinda blur now. Saw Jia Hui too… Always bumping into him at the weirdest places… Hmm…

On a more cheerful note, Sue’s joining our trip!! Yay!! Now there’s me, Mei Xian, Li Ying, Sue, and Brian!! Plus, we’ll be meeting Ed, Kah Ming and friends there!! Hehe… *Grin*. This is so my first time going for a trip with just friends and no parents… Well, except for Ong Kee Hui that year… It was a swimming competition bout 3 years back i think… I had fun then… We’re all going to fly to LANGKAWI!!! Woohoo!! Haha… Yes, i am definitely going crazy!! So can’t wait ler…

Countdown to freedom: 5 days 18 hours

Countdown to trip: 16 days

Good luck for Math paper, Engineering people and good luck for Chem paper, Bio people!! Hehe… *hugs* *muacks*