.:DoLpHiN’s BloG:.

Why is it that you want things that you don’t have/cannot have more than the things you already have??

Life just gets weirder and weirder the older you get, and the older you get, the more troubles and problems arise.

Is it possible for someone to be really happy with her/his life just the way it is??

Is it possible for someone to have no longing at all for something she/he doesn’t have??

Finals are up in less than a month. 24 days left from today. *Shit* I just hope i pass. That’s all i need. I just need to get through to the next step.

~Looks like it’s time to start digging my grave…~

The one week break started off ok. Went to One Utama with my girl-friends (minus one). It’s a pity LY couldn’t go. I miss her. Shelby, MX and i went to One Utama for dinner. We went to Italianese. The food was oklar. The best part of the night was when i got up to leave the place, i turned around and i looked right into the face of my really long lost friend/pet-sister. It’s been ages since i last saw her. Then when i greeted her and was talking, i realize that she was with my old tuition friend. It turned out to be her friend’s friend. Gosh. I was so shocked!! This world is really getting too small. Haha. I was pleased to bump into them though. Am meeting up with Annabelle this Thursday, hope everything goes well.

KJ joined us in One Utama after our dinner, Brian couldn’t come. Then about 10 something, we decided to go for Mangoloh. Brian joined us then. I had lots of fun!! It was great. Everyone was getting along so well with each other. *Smiles*

Was supposed to work on Sunday evening but i couldn’t even get out of bed. Had really bad ‘pains’. Was supposed to study but am getting lazy. Went to work last night. It was really quiet. Am supposed to pick my brother up after his work later at bout 2 a.m. It’s the time when all the crazy drivers come out. I really got a scare on my first night last Thursday. Will try to be more alert and awake today.

Got to go to uni on Wednesday. First for Structures meeting at 9a.m if my other team-mates can make it, then council meeting at 12p.m, then have to stay till 4.30p.m for swimming classes. Gosh… That’s a busy day for me. I had better get some studies done soon if not i’m a real goner… Why do i keep saying that but i still do nothing… Sigh…

It’s time to go now.

We had to construct a model of a bridge using only newspaper and glue. Our testing was yesterday. It was successful. Our hard work paid off. Our bridge weighed 2.25kg. It had to first support 1kg of weights. Then we had to put weights on it till our bridge deflected by 6.5mm. It took 28.8kg to do so to our bridge. Then came the fun part. We had to put loads on our bridge till it breaks. We tried putting weights on it but we couldn’t fit everything on. We put quite a bit already but it was still standing well… so we took turns standing on it… Haha… I went first being the lightest… After all my group mates went on, it was still intact so we went 2 by 2. I stood on it with Brian and nothing happened. We kept on increasing the load till it was about 138kg when one of the cables finally snapped. That was one of the fun labs.

Another was our momentum lab last week. All of us seriously got WET!!! We had to measure the flowrate of water using different connections. WET WET WET!! Haha. We were all having fun doing the lab. Only the calculations were a headache.

Just had 2 tests today… Computing and Electrical. Computing was fine. Electrical was a killer. Oh well.

Looks like i’m going into Electrical. I know everyone says it’s really tough and i know it is. I’m not 100% sure i love it but i’m willing to try. My parents are quite set with me doing Electrical. I really hope i pass Electrical this semester. If not, i’ll be doing Mechanical. Only time will tell.

There’s one week break next week. Our long awaited break!! Am supposed to go to Mid-Valley with darling Sue… Can’t wait to take a little break from lectures but there’s lots to do for this break… Momentum project, Structure project, study for Electrical, Computing, Momentum, and Structure… Doesn’t sound like a break anymore… Haha…

Kah Ming’s farewell tomorrow!! He’s leaving on Fri!! ~Snifff~ I’m so going to miss him. *Sigh* Oh well, can’t stop him for going… Haha…

I guess that’s it… I better go off now… Got to start doing my Problem Sets for Momentum which i have been neglecting… Then to bed i go!!

I should be over it by now but i’m not??

Are these signs that i should not do what i have actually set my mind on for the last few months??

When will this torture end??

Why am i not doing what i should be doing??

What’s wrong with me??

Why is all this happening now??

Maybe it’s just not meant to be??

Am i just fooling myself??

How do i go through all this shit??

I’ve hit a dead end… I’ve got nowhere to go and no one to go to… I just don’t understand… I’m dead… I’m a gonner… I’m alone…

Went for a swimming competition in my old club… They were having a Triangular meet and my club, Lake Club was the host this time so they were looking for more swimmers and decided to call me back to swim… I went there thinking that there won’t be many swimmers… Boy, was i wrong!! I had to swim with the younger ones who are WAY faster than me!! Sigh… I’m already retired for goodness sake… Ugh… It was so very tiring… At least i got to meet my old friends there… It was pretty fun…

Met up with Tanya, Ek Ming, Naveen and Weiwen last night. Can’t believe that almost everyone’s leaving already!! Sigh… So sad… Last night was fun too… It was nice to meet up and just sit and talk… Brought back memories… Haha…

I just mentioned how small the world was… Well, my old tuition mate found me on hi5 through a mutual friend and it turns out that he’s also in Monash!! Just just came back from Japan and he just enrolled… Met up with him today… That brought back memories too… haha… It’s really nice getting to meet him again even though we weren’t that close last time… Then i bumped into an old school mate who’s doing Engineering in Monash!! This is sooo cool!!

Back to more serious stuff, i’ve got to choose my major real soon… Sigh… Just went for the Electrical and Computer Systems Engineering talk today and i really don’t know now… I’ve still got a few weeks to think bout it. I’ll decide after i go for all the talks…

Bridge made out of paper!! Ugh… All the paper rolling is getting tiring!! It ain’t as easy as it sounds… And the worse thing is finals are coming up REALLLLLLL soon!! ARGH!!! I don’t even know a thing… HOW???? :’( To top it off… I have a tough paper to sit for on my BIRTHDAY!! Not a very nice birthday present… Oh well, nothing can be done…

I guess that’s bout it… I’m pretty tired now… Want to go take a short nap… Then it’s back to paper rolling… Till then… Ciaoz…

Just had my Structure presentation today… It was oklar… The lecturer wasn’t as scary as i expected. I don’t know i how we did though… Still hoping for the best.

I really don’t know what i’m doing. I should be studying but i’m not… I get scared but i don’t do anything bout it. I’ve been wasting my time pretty much everyday… Sigh… I keep telling myself to buck up but i still don’t do anything bout it. There’s Computing test tomorrow but i confirmed dead… Seriously… Don’t understand a thing!! Gosh… How am i going to get through this semester??

Something interesting happened today… My dad put out a rat trap to catch some rats that have been up in our roof. Today, he checked it and he found a squirrel in it!! It ate up my dad’s banana and was stuck in there. Once, a cat tried to get it. It was a fierce one!! It snapped at my dad when he tried to take the trap down. After giving me bout a minute to look at the squirrel close up, he tried drowning it… Unfortunately, the latch came up and the squirrel ran free!! Oh well, my dad’s going to try again. Hopefully we get to catch some real rats this time and DROWN THEM!! Muahahaa… Ugh…

Ok ok… I really should do get some studying done… Sigh… Naughty naughty me…

I feel very satisfied!! I lived up to everyone’s expectations… Thankfully… Today was the Inter-Programme Swimming Competition in Sunway. Monash versus the other programmes in Sunway College. In the end, Monash were the overall champions… I’m really really glad… For my individual events, i won everything but i’m sure my timing sucked… Haha… What the heck, i did my job and it really cheered me up a lot. A real change from feeling useless and all… However, now i’m looking like a lobster… I’m soooooo red in the face and on the shoulders… Sigh… I got sunburnt pretty badly…

After the competition, we played water polo for awhile in the HOT sun… Haha… Was really fun but TIRING!! Then i had to go help out at my aunty’s place… My cousin was having a birthday party and they were in the pool so i had to go in and make sure that the kids don’t venture to the deep end… Pretty tiring work when they made me swim all around… Hahaha… They are pretty cute though… I just adopted a daughter in the process… Hehe… I had a good day though… It was fun and it did hell a lot of good to my self-esteem… for the mean time lar… Hopefully it stays for my presentation on Monday… I so don’t know if i’m up to it… Sigh… What the heck lar… I just want to get over it!!!!!

Sook Wai: I’m glad you’re back… Hehehehe… Yeah, it’s becoming tougher for everyone and i really hope that it turns out good for everyone and not bad… Tough to say lar… Anything can happen… Oh well… That’s life… You take care ya?? *Hugz*