Crushed
I don’t know what to say… The only thing i know is that i’m crushed… I feel betrayed… It hurts too bad… Why?? What did i do wrong?? It’s like i’ve lost my best friend… I never imagined that this would ever happen… I know people change and things change over time but what the fuck?? This kind of things shouldn’t!! If you anything against me, tell me right to the face k?? Don’t do things to hurt my feelings especially behind my back… I getting sick of such childish behaviour… *Sigh* I don’t even know why i feel so fucking angry at this… It seems like such a small problem… But it hurts like hell… I feel the stabbing in the heart… There are things that i really treasure and friendship is one of them… Am i such a bad person?? I know i have a VERY BAD TEMPER, i like to bitch, i rely on people too much, i’m not independent one single bit, i do horribly in my exams cos i’m STUPID, i’ll never look as good as some people, my personality scares people off… What else?? Why dont’ YOU tell me?? I know there’s lots you want to complain bout me… Fine… Complain all you like… You can complain right to my face k?? I believe in friends and sisters forever… but now i’m starting NOT to believe…
I’m just crapping bout stuff… You don’t need to understand what you’re reading… Just know that i’m hurt, crushed, depressed, and sad… Don’t ask me anymore than what you read… If you have anything to add to my list of bad stuff bout me, just drop me a comment… Thanks for reading…
October 28th, 2005 at 7:18 am
chill on the pills sister
lol loox like its gg fucked up yeh? things pickup
October 28th, 2005 at 10:20 am
omg! dear, you ok??? everything’s gonna be ok…life hurts at times..but sometimes it’s beautiful too.
October 28th, 2005 at 7:19 pm
Sam: Haha… Yeah… Everything’s fucked up… I really hope you’re right…
October 28th, 2005 at 7:20 pm
Sookie: I’ll be alright…
I don’t really see the beautiful side of life at the moment… I’m trying to get over it… Thanks… 
October 29th, 2005 at 10:15 am
hey babes!!…don’t be so bothered bout it. who cares when the other party doesn’t rite. there’s more great things to look forward to…u know when it rains…look beyond it…the rainbow will appear soon enough :)(god knows wat i’m crapping hehehe but u get what i mean)
u actually made my day today…was feeling quite stressed due to exams but talking to u just made me forget bout it…hehe thanks babes 
shall talk to u soon…all the best for ur coming papers. luna’s waiting for us!! hahaha.
things are looking brighter these days for u…so make the best out of it…am truely happy for u for finding yourself again and spreading the ’shu-fenn’ vibe around
luvya!…muuuakksss *hugsss*
October 30th, 2005 at 2:20 am
hmm gg… lol dota kaki?? btw what ppl say is not important tho…its just how u look at urself that is important…just dun lose ur self confidence…cheer up… n good luck in ur exams…
October 31st, 2005 at 2:35 am
Wayz: Haha… You’re such a darling!! I get what you’re trying to say…
Hehe… I’m glad i helped… 
All the best to you for your papers too… Yup, Luna’s up soon!! Thanks so much babe… You really helped me too… 
Love you lots!! *Hugs* *Muaxxxx*
October 31st, 2005 at 4:27 am
Alvin: Thanks bro!!
I’ve cheered up but i haven’t gotten back my confidence… in fact i never had confidence in myself… Thanks for the luck… I’ll need it… All the best to you too!! *Hugs*
October 31st, 2005 at 8:42 am
hi, remember me, sheu…havent said anything to u in awhile…anyway, i read ur most current blog and well, i’ve nothing much to say except that shit happens and i’ve gone thru shit like that…so chin up, i know you can handle it =) i aint got anything to add to your list of bad stuff about you but can i start a list of good stuff about you? =D
November 2nd, 2005 at 1:23 am
Hey dearie! god its been ages since ive seen u….man!! looks like things for u havent been totally right..but no worries sweetie..things will be soon..hopefully…muaks..and btw! its ur birthday!!! 2nd of november!!! heheh hope that ur having a blast of ur time…muakss..miss ya..u’ll be in my prayers..:) love yazzz…
November 2nd, 2005 at 8:54 am
babeee! you okay? whatever it is, hope you’re feeling better now! you may not always think so but you’re a strong person, dear.. you can get through anything
best wishes on this wonderful day and you have a great time okay! love you lotsss.. happy b’day! *huggles*